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I never would have thought

I never would have though that this is the life I would have. When I was young I would imagine what my life would be like when I was married. I guess somehow I thought once I was married I would live Happily Ever After!! are you kidding me?!! I think since I have been married I have still been waiting for the Happily Ever After part to come in. I never would have thought that marriage would be this hard. Its realy hard to live up to someones expectations of you or what they think a wife or mother should be. Do men really have no idea how hard it is to get dinner made and the house somewhat clean and keeping the kids out of trouble? It seems like everyday I get into trouble for not having dinner done or the house clean enough or I haven't had the kids help enough. What ever!! I hate it when I get treated like I am the child or the servent and I have to make excuses why I havent met that persons expectation. I am not a servent nor will I ever be a servent to my husband or kids!! I am a mother who is willing to make dinner and clean the house and help out and nuture my children. I do it because I love them, not because I am a servent. I do the best I can and a little apreciation would be nice sometimes. I shouldnt have to get all worried when my husband gets home to see what he'll complain about next. What I hate most is when I try and do a good job of cleaning or making a good dinner with the works, those seem to be the times when they complain the most. Some times I think Why bother, why bother at all.

Just a place to vent

I started this blog just so I can have some place to let out my thoughts and frustrations. Sometimes life gets so crazy and out of control I feel like I am going to lose it. I don't really need someone to try and find a solution to my problems, I just need someone to just listen and somewhat care about how I am feeling. I'm hoping that just by writing things out I can help fix my own self pity attitude I seem to be having.